cos i want you.
and i feel you.
crawling underneath my skin




man, i love this song.
beautiful.




supposed to be here for a while only
so i guess i'll try to make this short.




just finished tution.
haha i just feel abit more knowledgeable now.



although i know that what i know
is probably not half of what there is to know



but..
its a good start




today my mum told me the most comforting thing on earth



i hope your teacher wants to see me not cos you didnt do well
even if it is because of that,
i just need to know that you tried hard enough and gave it your best lah.




i feel really bad about letting her down like that
i know she's really disappointed in me



i mean,
who want to have a stupid child right
a child who spends her time doing anything else but studying




i wouldnt.




i always disappoint her like that
time and again
always making empty promises to her
and just repeating the same old mistakes




im like the black sheep of the family



seriously
black
blacker than black




and i think she's finally understand something.
that i need to have a certain amount of freedom,
not just doing everything under her eye.



she asked me what i was gonna do after class
and i said
'oh im not sure. maybe i'll come home?'
and she said
'are you sure you're gonna come home not'
and i said
yeah should be lah (like where else can i go right)
and she said
'you say yourself one ah. but me and daddy will be going for a wedding at the marriot.
and i said
'oh..kay. means i'll be alone at home till what time?
and she said
'depends what time we get back. its a wedding dinner lah.




WOAH.
i was so damn shocked.
cos usually, like its a must for me to follow them for functions and stuff?
and i really HATE tagging along.
especially when i dun really know the people at the function im attending
so yeah.
just imagine how happy i was so hear something like that.
coming from my MUM.




all the good things seem to be rolling in one at a time
and i hope its bcos i told myself
that i would change
i am changing,
i've changed.
i guess god heard my prayers after all(=





im still wondering what to do after class.
i dun want coming home to an empty house.
HMM maybe i'll go out.
wont bother anyone.
go do something by myself..



I KNOW
waterfront((=
yeah maybe i'll go sit there
for old times sake.
let my mind run through a thousand memories.
and close my eyes.
make believe you're right here beside me again.
yeah.
i'll watch the stars,
just as they watch over you tonight.




can't you see
you're everything i hoped for
you're everything i need
you're so beautiful, to me.